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Listening to the infamous response to the question last night on the Miss USA Pageant left me
A long time ago I tried out for a dance company that I had no business walking in the door of to begin with. The experience is a blur because I mentally blocked out the embarrassment. I can't even say for sure that I did one part of any of the dances correctly, or for that matter, even moved at all (Nicole, perhaps you remember?). My week long dream of becoming a famous ballerina came to an abrupt end, but I survived, and it never really mattered. Of course I have had plenty of embarrassment since said dance try-out, but this experience came to mind pretty quickly when I started typing. I mean...put yourself in Miss Utah's shoes for a minute -- imagine you have spent the past 10+ years of your life practicing, competing, losing, practicing, competing, losing, practicing, competing, finally WINNING!, making it to the moment you dreamed of, walking to the podium of hope, only to blow it. Mumble out something about education and blow everything you worked so hard for, dreamed of, had in your hands. The fact she finished third runner-up even after that proves she must have had scores at the top. And now for the rest of her life, that question will replay in her mind like a bad song, stealing her happiness every. single. time.
Compared to what many have/will be dealt in the way of life challenges, this is a minor thing. But it is a good reminder that we can prepare all we want and at some point, it won't make any difference that we did. The fall will be hard, sharp, and painful. It will be the "worst moment of my life" for a hot minute until the sting wears off. But then it's over, and the pain always fades. ALWAYS. I hope that Miss Utah has been able to resist the tendency to relive the failure over and over again today, because for some reason, that's what we like to do with our failure. Think about it while we dry our hair, let it rob us of our confidence when we are about to face a new challenge, steal our joy when something exciting is taking place...
Tough break, Utah. But, thankfully life goes on.